This call was basically a morning-after / full-moon / mental-hospital debrief.

I first wanted to test whether I could cross the stream because the water was low, buttt I then decided not to push the Utznaberg / ruin route and instead used the walk as a calmer recording setup. Inline skates parked, sunrise not yet there, full moon only a few hours past — and yes, this already matters because my sleep is often worst shortly before full moon.

The main continuation was from the mental hospital night.

After the previous call/recording, I still could not sleep. Security was there, the nurse seemed more occupied with her phone, and I eventually asked for Temesta / sleep medication. This brought up the broader point: medication can trap people for months. I remembered someone from Oberwil/Oberi around 2016 who had been on a very high dose and needed about eight months to come down again. So this is not nothing. Getting away from that stuff requires a mindset not everyone has.

The night itself was classic psychiatric-system absurdity, buttt not even the worst kind. One experienced nurse, who still knew me from 2020, forced me to wash the only pajama I could properly sleep in because of hygiene. It was late, the clothes were wet, and even with medication the sleep quality was bad. Later I had breakfast ready, took another small dose, discussed clearly that I needed to sleep — and then the automatic blinds woke me almost immediately. After that, another peer/recovery person woke me again because nobody had passed on the information that I had just gone back to sleep. She agreed they should have told her.

So the point is not: “this one person was evil.” The point is: this is simply how the psychiatric machine produces madness while claiming to treat it.

Still, this alone is not the real reason for a Nachbesprechung. It is annoying, predictable, structurally stupid — but not the core injustice.

The more important part was the discharge / meeting situation. My brother would have been available, they gave a 10–12 window, it happened around 11, but they did not even call him. Again: structurally sloppy, buttt not surprising.

A key cultural moment was Mani Matter. The sad part: even competent people there knew Emil Steinberger but not Mani Matter. That is a problem if we are talking about Swiss culture, language, and meaning. Mani Matter is not just “songs”; he is probably the best Swiss-German textual/cultural bridge we have. The connection to Augenmenschen / deafness matters too: Mani Matter’s son could not hear the songs, so the text had to carry something deeper. That links directly to Johanna’s work and to the whole question of how meaning survives when one sensory channel is missing.

Then came the full-moon / body part. Because of the old surgery / bone-gips-plate issue, I have noticed for years that sleep gets especially bad a few days before full moon. I can almost predict it from the body. This is not something you casually say in a mental hospital because they immediately sort it into the wrong drawer. But as lived observation, it is real enough for me.

The police topic came next. The important distinction: local police do not necessarily know the whole story, and that is partly how the system is supposed to work. If someone claims I am planning some kind of weapons/terror thing, they have to take that seriously. But the local police cannot all know everything about the case. That is exactly why the situation becomes so strange: high-security logic without normal explanation.

My mother does not understand this. She sees a broken door lock / door service note and immediately assumes I must have done something wrong or threatened someone. That is the developmental-psychology problem again: she cannot separate “police acted” from “Urs must be guilty.” My father, with his military-chain-of-command background, understands at least better that commands are followed in such situations. But even that does not mean anyone is really thinking properly.

My family knows only fragments. My doctor brother was involved only in a limited way, mostly so they could check basic factual points, such as whether I had really visited my nephew. My uncle and the Einsiedeln side know some police search context, but they do not know the full structure either. And I myself do not fully know where the higher-level information came from. That is why I spoke to the lawyer and why I cannot simply ignore the next police appointment.

Faruk asked good live questions: police, family confusion, bikes, and whether this makes people around me unsure what is going on.

The bike question was simple: bicycle yes, motorcycle no. I have a boat and car licence, but not a motorbike licence. I had recently repaired family bicycles with my father shortly before the police situation. Motorbikes might be a different nature/speed experience, but that is not my path.

On the family question: yes, of course they are confused. This does not happen every day. That is why I proposed Zoom with Christoph / others present, because my mother and aunt mainly want to hear my voice, but I cannot do that alone with them. They need a moderated situation, otherwise it just becomes the same family projection machine again.

On the legal/police-power question, I cannot give a real legal answer. I am not the police expert. My information comes partly from observation, partly from media/series like Davos 1917, partly from trying to understand Swiss chain-of-command logic. If someone wants the real legal mechanics, they should ask someone trained in police/law, not me. I know the lived experience, not the full legal architecture.

There was also a final symbolic number / code point around 848 / 88 / HH / Heinrich Heine / far-right coding in Switzerland. The point there is not to get lost in meme numerology, but to show again how codes, greetings, politics, and language overlap — and how quickly people miss the actual cultural layer.

Core takeaway:

This call was not a crisis call. It was a field report after a psychiatric-system episode.

The main message:

the mental hospital still produces avoidable madness through tiny procedural failures; my family still interprets police/system action as proof that I did something wrong; the police situation is complicated exactly because not everyone can or should know everything; Mani Matter / Swiss culture / Augenmenschen matters more than the professionals realize; Faruk’s questions were useful because they forced clarification instead of another passive summary; and now the correct next step is sleep, not escalation.